How do I want to live? This I ask myself at the time for me to begin a change.
In general: I want to live at peace and harmony with a world I have no power over, a world that is often strange to me.
If it be true as I believe it is, that we create our own reality why then am I not where I want to be now? Is there something I am creating in my life I do not know of or understand? Some secret hidden agenda I have? Or am I fallowing some script handed down to me when I was an infant, revising it as I grew playing it over and over as an adult, looking for ways to improvise yet finding the same end?